Quote of the day: “Creativity can be described as letting go of certainties.” —Gail Sheehy
Statue in fountain - Minnesota Landscape Arboretum
I have entered a new territory where I’ve never been before. Instead of working towards a fixed goal, I listen for the faint yearnings of my heart. Instead of setting rational goals to build my business in a specific direction, I lean into potential. Listening to hunches or intuitions, I navigate this new land of possibility day by day with no idea where I will end up.
I’ve done my time as a cog in the machine. Now, instead of working in the field of the rational, thinking, analyzing mind, my heart wants me to enter the complexity, chaos, and uncertainty of unity, blending, and bending rationality into new perceptions and creations.
For weeks now, I’ve vacillated between heading for the land of possibility and potential where my heart feels at ease, and steering towards the known landscape of goals and purpose and how one is “supposed to” build a business. I’ve fought an internal battle between trusting intuition and controlling outcome, too often slipping back into controlling behaviors without realizing it.
Sigh…
Each time I stray from the land of possibility, my body starts talking through increased pain. If I don’t listen, it turns up the heat some more, until I realize, “Damn!, I’m doing it again!” So I stop and listen and play until I feel like resting and rest until I feel like playing. And it’s working! Ever so slowly my health is improving. Each month I am more able to trust the flow and be comfortable with complexity and chaos. I am full of new ideas and projects and my photography is improving.
If this all seems a bit “woo woo” or crazy to you, I don’t blame you. Listening to and following my heart has turned out to be the most challenging work I’ve done in a long while. It goes against so much of the advice out there on how to create a business or how to navigate my life.
Some days I feel like the only zebra in a crowd of horses. And then my self-doubt kicks into high gear and I begin thinking, “Maybe I’m totally deluded! Maybe I should just find a job and stop this nonsense of following my heart.”
Fortunately, I have good friends who are also living in and navigating this wide world of possibility. Together we support and encourage one another. Using my entire body to navigate the world instead of just my head, is challenging because I’m still learning. But, oh, the possibilities! The wonder! The joy! My heart sings when I listen to it. I think I’ll play my way into a new way of being.
How can you lean into the wide world of possibility and potential? How can you find a way to “play until you feel like resting and rest until you feel like playing?”
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